ONCE BITTEN TWICE SHY...

i believe that when someone has hurt you once, you tend to avoid that person. so am i. that thing happened when i was in form 3 in secondary school. i still remember clearly what had happened. i forgave her already but until today i still can't forget that moment and i will never forget it for the rest of my life. she was my very best friends. at that time, i had a crush on one of my classmate. he's my first love. he was a good looking boy but that's not the reason why i like him. i like him  because of his behavior. he was very well-manner person. because i was very excited, i told my very best friend about my feeling. she gave positive response for me. she was as happy as i felt at that time. i was extremely happy because i got someone to share my first love story with. i kept liking that boy until one day i heard that he already had girlfriend. my heart sank. i felt extremely sad and disappoint at the same time even though i never confess to him that i like him. at first i didn't who was his girlfriend. i don't even want to know who she was because it'll making me depressed. i told myself to forget him even i know it was never an easy task. to forget someone you love is like trying to remember someone you never know. i kept studying hard and did something interesting to ignore my feelings but it didn't work. you have no idea how hurt i was because i even got 'C' for the first time in my history paper for mid year exam. i felt that something was going wrong with my best friend that i share my story before. she was showing her awkwardness towards me. when we were together, she talked less to me and always avoiding my eyes. i wonder why. few days later, one if my friends told ma that my first love's girlfriend was my best friend. my heart sank again. i felt sad not because she stole my first love but because she was not being honest with me. i was angry because she not the one whom told me about it. even i was sad and angry, i still can forgive her. one night, i asked her why did she did this to me. i even told her that i like him but she still want to have him. she was the one confessing her love towards him first. she asked for my forgiveness that night while crying heavily. i accepted her apology with open heart.  it's okay maybe he was not the one for me so God protected my feeling from being dumped by him. i had decide to just be friend with him. that night end peacefully after we forgive each other mistake. i kept doing my daily life as usual but one day, my friend told me that my best friend was not happy enough seeing my friendship withe her boyfriend. i was shocked as before she was the one told me that i can still be friend with him. that night, she exploded, forgetting her promise towards me. she shouted at me loudly saying that i was flirting with her boyfriend when i was not at all. i asked her to clam down and discussed properly but she refused. she kept attacking me until i cried really hard. i was extremely shocked, disappoint and sad being accused by my own best friend. i can't even stand up properly because i was losing my strength. i felt like my heart was going to burst. she never let me explain about it. one of her friends was being on her side attacking me together. in my life, i never shouted to anyone even i was really angry. but that night, i shouted at her friend because i don't like her to involve in our problem. she knew nothing but accusing me. because we need to attend biology's class, we had to stop. i cried on the way to class because i didn't expect thing will going this worst. before the class started, she asked for my apology. i think she was feeling guilty for what she had done to me. at first, it was really hard to forgive her but after thinking for a while i realized that two best friends should fight over a boy. we have to protect our precious friendship. then i forgave her but it took a while for me to get close with her like before. i tried as hard as i can to avoid her because she gave me a very deep and hurt scar on my heart that i will never forget for the rest of my life. until today, we are still good friend but not good as before anymore. i even avoid her boyfriend and we never talked to each other for about 3 years even we were good friend before. i already forgave her. but until today i keep avoiding her when there's a matter regarding  man, love and herself. i'm afraid that that black moment of us might happen again. last year, i heard that she already broke up with him. i was sad because we were fighting over him but she end up clash with him. i always pray that she will has a happy ending with him but now it's impossible. me myself, i already forget my feeling towards him. i hope for the best for both of them even they are not a couple anymore. i'm happy if they are happy. that's the best for all of us. i accepted everything with my open heart.

       

KEVIN

Based on the story ‘Kevin’ by Catherine Lim, I like Kevin’s mother character because she always takes care of her son even though others might think that she is cruel. From my point of view, Kevin’s mother wants the best for him. She wants her son to be a successful person in his future. For me, what she had done is right because when Kevin passes the exam with flying colours, he will be rewarded with many presents. Although some of them are not what he wants. For example, he wants a pair of football boots but his mother gives him a pair of sneakers. He wants comic but instead of that, he was given books. His mother refused to buy him comic because of the stupidity and poor language. She disallows her son to play football because she thinks that football was rough. Besides, Kevin’s friend, Boon Kee gives bad influence towards him. 

Kevin’s mother shows her love towards her son even though she being very strictly towards Kevin. It has been prove in the text when she kisses Kevin before he went to sleep. She also asks Kevin to go to bed when she saw her son was already sleepy. I believe that a mother will still love and concern about her child no matter how strict and fierce she is.

             From my opinion, Kevin’s character is really obedient. He did everything his mother wants even though he does not like it. As long as her mother happy and will not scold him, he will do it. Kevin passes almost all tests with excellent results because of her mother. His mother rewarded him when he got first place in his class.

            Personally, I think what have Kevin’s mother did were good for him but her way is a little bit inconvenient for Kevin since he was not a child anymore. This will give bad effects for Kevin when he grows up later. He will be unable to make decision because it was her mother doing that for him all the time. Besides, he lacks communication skills because he just follows what his mother wants. He never learn how to communicate well from her mother. Plus, he will be an anti social person as his mother controls everything in his life including his friends. She disallows Kevin to be friend with Boon Kee because she believes that he will give bad influence towards her son. For me, his mother should let him control his own life so that he will be a better person in the future.  

There is one day when he got only 82 percent and he is really afraid that he will be scolded by her mother. It was his first time getting mark lower than 95 percent. When he goes home, his servant told him that his mother was being hospitalized he was very happy instead of worrying about his mother condition because he will not be scolded. I think son should care about his mother. He should not do that. He should worry about his mother’s health. But, if I look in different ways, in was his mother fault at all because she is the one whom never shows her concern towards Kevin. Kevin feels greatly happy because he does not have any affection towards her.

            In conclusion, the story is good and I really enjoy reading it. It gives me a lot of lessons to be practiced in my life.

THE DROVE ROAD SUMMARY

The drovers had to overcome the problem of the long journey by providing enough food for the cattle. They have to rely on the food founded along the way. They also have great skills in maneuvering the herds which often spread out over considerable distances by riding the horses. The drovers had to be careful so that the cattle will not stray into private land, if not they have to pay for the damage. The drovers had to be on the look out for farm and blow a horn to warn the farmer to prevent the herd from getting mixed up. Cattle are easily frightened by sudden loud noises. It take hours to calm and reassemble them. The drovers will face the robbers who might attack them and the herds. The drovers need to have knowledge of the temperament of the animals to judge how far and how fast to drive them so that they will not be overdriven.

CHOICE

life in ipg...

Man’s power of choice enables him to think like an angel or a devil, a king or a slave. Whatever he chooses, mind will create and manifest. ~Frederick Bailes~

i believe every human will experience how to make a very difficult choice in his or her life. so am i. for me, choice is about taking risk just like the poem 'the road not taken'. the poet tried to tell us how hard for human to make choice in life. i myself experience how to make decision about two choices. it will not hard if we need to choose between  good and bad things. but it will be extremely hard to choose the best between the better.
when i was 18 years old, i need to make a very wise choice for my future to be a very successful person. i need to choose whether to stay in uitm for TESL course or went to IPG for maths course. i really don't know what to do. i have no idea which one to choose. all my family members suggested to me to choose ipg because the opportunity to get job after finishing study is bright. in addition, i will be fully supported by the government as i'll receive allowance. personally, i love staying in uitm because the environment there were really comfortable and i met many good friends. we like siblings even we only knew each other for about a month. besides, i really love English. for me English is fun and i enjoy learning it. after thinking for quite a long time, instead of staying in uitm, i choose to study in IPG Kampus Perempuan Melayu Melaka. at first, i regret myself for choosing to study there and i thought i've made a very wrong choice. yes, it's true that it doesn't matter where i study either in uitm or ipg because i will still become a teacher. i love to be a teacher since i was kid. teaching is my soul. besides, i think teaching is a very noble job. why i said so? because there will no doctors, engineers, architects or even minister without a teacher. if i choose uitm i'll be english teacher. if i choose ipg i'll be maths teacher. honetsly, i don't really like maths subject since i was in standard 1. i think maths is terrible and horrible. i ever failed my add maths subject many times when i was in secondary school. fortunely, after 3 years struggling to be future maths teacher, now i find that maths is extremely fun and interesting. i enjoy learning it. now i realized that i've made a very wise choice to choose ipg because i can learn both english and maths and the same time. my love for english subject is endless. it's a really good opportunity for me. moreover, i learn how to be a good teacher in ipg because we're being train very well by the lecturers here. now i admit what had my former maths teacher said before. she said that we use maths not only in classroom but in our daily life as well. even when we die, we still need maths. 
i feel happy and satisfy to choose to study in ipg instead of uitm because my life change to a better life in ipg.  i feel regret for regretting choosing ipg at first. now only i understand how hard the poet for 'the road not taken' to choose his choice for a better life. it's impossible for us to choose both in our life. either we like it or not, we still have to think wisely and choose which one is the best for us in future. the most important thing is never regret our choice if we had choose the best choice. it depends to us on how wise we make our choice in a good or bad ways.

life in uitm...

 

 

 

THE GREY

the grey movie poster...

today i went to watch a movie at the cinema with my very best friend. we watched The Grey. this story was set in Alaska about the wolves hunter. the story began when all the hunters from the same company went to Alaska by plane. unfortunately, the plane crash and all of them stuck in the snow. most of them died and only 7 of them are alive. it was really touching to watch how hard they worked to survive in the heavy snow storm and at the same time being attack by the wolves.  their strong team work was really amazing. they cooperate and support each other to survive. their strong bond as  friends as well is really good and i really wish to have special bond like that with my friends as well. they did their very best to escape from the place in order to prevent the wolves. the wolves hunted and eat them. they felt that human will harm them so that's why they kill human. 2 of the team died because of the wolves. one died because his body cannot stand the cold anymore. one of them died because he fall from the mountain. diaz give up because he can't walk anymore due to his broken ankle. he asked his friend to leave him alone. the most sad moment was when henrick drowning. he died because he can't breath even ottway tried to help him. for me, ottway was a very good leader and friend because he can even think wisely in panic situation when others can't. he tried hard to help his friend as well. it was a really good story because it showed how strong human can be. i really love the story. it gave me many lessons.. thanks to the producer for the great movie i ever watch!!!

PEARL OF MY LIFE

my beloved family (me, my mother, father,younger brother and eldest sister)

i have a very happy family. i have my beloved father, mother, eldest brother, eldest sister and younger brother. my father is a businessman while my mother is a teacher. my father is 51 years old and my mother is one year older than him (52). my eldest brother is currently studying at Kolej Tentera Udara Kedah. he's married. he tie a knot with his fellow classmate when he was in secondary school. both of them was born in 1986. my sister is an English teacher in secondary school. she's 25 this years old this year. my younger brother is waiting for his SPM result. he's 18 years old. i have a very cute 'four legs' sister. her name is Cherry. i love to play with her when i go back home. i believe that playing with pets can help a lot in relieving stress. she likes my younger brother and my father the most in my family. and last but not least of course it's me. i currently studying at IPG Kampus Perempuan Melayu Melaka.i'm Maths teacher to be. i'm 21 years old this year. still young and strong enough to make people around me happy and living in peace. i love to make people around me happy. my name given my both my beloved parents means 'our happines'. i hope my family and i can live in happiness till the end of our life.

my sister in law and my brother during their wedding day...

 

 

 

 

this is my cherry..cute right?

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!

today is my one and only younger brother's birthday. he's 18 years old now.i hope this year will be a very happy moment for him. hopefully, he will always stay healthy and success in his life. kakcik will pray the best for adik!!!good luck in life and may Allah bless you forever. i dedicate this lovely song for him:

 HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU,

YOU ARE BORN IN THE ZOO,

AMONG MONKEY AND KANGAROO,

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU!!!

kekekekekekekekekekeke....

here is my brother...